i know this is fucked up ok i wrote this like 4 days ago after taking 3 50mg edibles

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 I swear im not trying to make death a poetic thing but I’ve decided how I want to die. In the ocean. And I’ll sink to the bottom. And I’ll be able to look up at the surface, up at the sky. For a moment it will be beautiful and perfect. There will be nothing holding me. Then I will start to struggle for breath, and I will consider swimming back to the surface, but knowing I can’t swim, and it’s too far away now, I will give up. I will suffocate as black enters my vision, and my lungs fill with water as I let the last of the air molecules trapped in them loose. They float back to the surface, happy to escape, to be free as well. I hope whoever is watching from above looks fondly down upon me, and is able to share my euphoria in this moment, even if it is in the cruel way that gods look down upon humans; a cruel, malicious humor in seeing another human stupidly die. The water pressure hurts my nose and ears. There is no more oxygen entering my bloodstream, there hasn’t been for a while. My brain rapidly falls into a coma as my brain cells suffocate and die. The last connection releases a numbing spark of neurotransmitters. My ears and nose don’t hurt anymore. I’m really dragging this on aren’t I? Well that's it I guess. I sink to the bottom eventually. Three foot long nemertean worms and carnivorous starfish swarm my body. The nemertean worm has a snout like a harpoon which can be used to pierce a hole in the flesh and enter. The starfish start away on the surface, pushing out their stomachs through their mouths to feed. There are other people here too. Things grow very slowly here, which gives them incredibly long life spans. This leaves them all the time in the world to digest. 

They will feed here throughout the summer, until all that remains is a skeleton, stripped bare.