however painful, i like to b alive.

[r3v3lation]

Even though the sun burns
I’ll never stop looking

No matter how much it hurts
I’ll never close my eyes 

I squint against the light

When I’m able to see again
The world is both too vivid and too dull 

The sky is brilliant as always 
And the sun is blinding
Scorching everything it touches
And blessing those it doesn't

I wave to passerby

letting out whoops and yells when they wave back

I hope this means as much to them

As it means to me

The acknowledgment of existence in the eyes of others 

Is a gift beyond gratitude 

I stand up 

Licking the salt from my lips

I perch precariously where no one else dares 

There are shouts of alarm and worry

But nothing can touch me

For in this moment

I truly feel free 
Only the wind can touch me now

If illusions are illusions 

It wouldn’t matter

If we don’t know any better

Nothing can prevent us from feeling

If I die I won't be upset
I've lived how I want
And if I stop
It won't be my problem anymore